4 years. 1 month. 8 days.
I always hoped that I’d never have to write this post, but at the same time I always knew that it was a possibility.
After 4 years, 1 month and 8 days it’s time to say goodbye to The Musical Outcast.
At midnight on the 1st August 2014 The Musical Outcast went live for the first time and I know that it sounds hyperbolic but on that day my life changed forever. As the clock hit 12 I was drunk in a nightclub in my hometown and I’m not sure I’ve ever felt that proud of anything in my life. At the time it represented a new start, an adventure and a chance to forge a career doing something that I loved.
The following years have been absolutely ridiculous in the best way possible. I honestly don’t know how else to sum it up. It’s been the best roller-coster that I’ve ever been on. I poured my heart and soul into every word across everyone of the thousands of reviews that I wrote. This website has got me through breakups, bereavements, the highest of highs, the lowest of lows and everything in between. It was probably to the detriment of the site at times but I hid NOTHING. You can argue all day about how good the content was but it was nothing if not real. Honesty and integrity came before anything else.
To this day I’m still not sure how but I managed to review some of the biggest bands in the world. (How the hell does a guy reviewing music from his bedroom get to review Black Stone Cherry for God’s sake!?) I saw some of the best unsigned bands in the country as well as some of the worst! I was sworn at in multiple languages (Who can forget the infamous Robby Valentine review) shouted at and abused online but I loved every minute. And my God for a brief time this site was genuinely really fucking good.
I’ve spent so long agonising over what to do with the website it’s just reached the point of parody. This decision has made me the most indecisive man on Earth. The problem is that I don’t want to have to close the site, but I know that I have to. I genuinely believe that with more free time and a little funding I could not only get the site back to where it was but go way beyond that and make a living running it, but I just don’t have the time anymore to dedicate to do that. I’ve always promised myself that I would never half-ass anything so seeing as I can’t give the website 100% I’ve got to let it go.
The last 4 years have been incredible but it’s time to try and move on to something else. That something else is the job I’ve been doing for the last 6 months, and don’t get me wrong I like it, but I love writing. So while the website is going to come to an end, I still plan to write about music in some capacity, and hell maybe one day I will make my living doing it. But at least for a little while that dream has got to go on the backburner.
What else can I say? Writing this post has caused me more anguish and anxiety than any break-up ever has that’s for sure.
Before I disappear off into the sunset I’d just like to throw out a few thank you’s to the following;
Christopher Pierznik for lending me his expertise and fantastic writing ability, if I can be half the writer that guy is then I’ll be happy.
Claire Mann heading out on the road with me in the early days and providing all those shiny photos of some of my favourite ever gigs.
Amy Wyatt for her contributions to the site and for being such an awesome cheerleader for The Musical Outcast down the years.
A massive thank you to my long-suffering girlfriend Lucy, you put up with my moaning and agonising over the site and pushed me to follow my passion. My family, including my brother Karl who shared the hell out of anything I wrote, and my incredible mates, Sam, Chloe, Bridg, Tank, you were there in the beginning and no matter how annoying it was keep being asked to share things, surprisingly never told me to go and fuck myself.
Oh and last but not least the bands, artists, PR companies, promoters and everyone in between who gave a guy who didn’t know what the hell he was doing the time of day and an opportunity to do something he really loved.
I’m sorry if I’ve missed anyone out but I’m rubbish at this kind of thing!
And finally (in best news presenter voice) a massive heart felt thank you to each and every one of you guys reading this because without you this whole thing would have been a little pointless. You don’t realise how much you reading and sharing my articles to the world meant to me.
It’s been such incredible fun, we really shook things up! At least for a little while. See you all soon.