“It’s been a long time, I shouldn’t have left you” (Eric B & Rakim, ‘Know You Got Soul’ 1987)
It’s fair to say that things have been more than a little quiet on here of late. This break was never planned or predetermined it’s just kind of how the cards fell. That being said, I think it’s about time that I stepped back in the game.
In the last couple of months my life has undergone some pretty huge changes (All for the better) but they have all had an impact on The Musical Outcast. I met a girl, thought she was grand… (She actually is) and got a new job. This meant that I was doing two jobs as well as trying to stay on top of and run the website. Turns out, this was actually an impossible task. My time off was being measured in hours and not days and the size of this monster workload meant that I didn’t have time to write.
Alongside this if I’m brutally honest I lost my motivation. I fell out of love with the industry. The relentless grind of website hits, twitter interactions, and Facebook likes on my end and being swamped by PR about the ‘the next great band’ just left me feeling a bit fatigued. The grind for unsigned and up and coming bands is relentless but it’s also the same for people who write about them, play them on the radio or promote their shows.
That’s not to say that there wasn’t some good stuff going on as well. Download Festival was an experience I will never forget for a whole load of reasons. Not least the trench foot. I also got the chance to go to a gig at The Flapper, where I saw The Crimson Star put on a clinic to a packed room and relatively new band Wave make an unbelievable first impression. Those two guys are taking everything that you thought you knew about rock/metal and alternative music and flipping it on its head. There is not a band out there, on the local scene especially, doing what those guys are doing. They won’t be for everyone but go and check them out.
I have been looking for a way to get myself back into music but the spark still wasn’t there. However, as a wise man once said ‘things done changed.’ I found myself in the hot and sweaty downstairs room of The Flapper last Saturday watching Secrets of Mariana launch their latest EP and after one song I knew I had to start writing again. I remembered why I loved music, why I started this in the first place, the spark was back. If me and music had been heading towards the divorce court we had instead just renewed our vows. On Monday I then left one of my jobs and now here I am once more, back in front of all of you awesome people.
Sorry for the rambling, the disappearance, the fact I’m a million miles behind with reviews and the fact I’ve barely replied to any emails or messages in the last couple of months, but finally I am back. I feel like I’ve got unfinished business and a hell of a lot more to give. We went through a rough patch, our marriage was on the rocks and the kids were getting worried, but my first love and I are made of strong stuff. We had a little time apart, and absence really does make the heart grow fonder. The Outcast and music it seems are together forever.
In short, I’m going to keep doing this shit till I collapse…